of love and gender.

Anonymous asked: http://cryingtotheocean.tumblr.com/post/1597296744

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I’ve seen that before! :D It’s a lovely message, Anon, and happy Thanksgiving! (:

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Seath and Gavin will be doing an “It Gets Better” video tonight or tomorrow. If you have any questions, or anything you’d like us to mention, please leave it in the ask box. (: Anons are welcome.

-gavinhaley:

I had a panic attack last night. It was a bad one. I was trying to bind, you see. Trying to wrap my chest up so tightly that there was no sign of the feminine bulges beneath my shirt. But it wasn’t working. I couldn’t get the bandage tight enough, couldn’t get those tumors small enough, and I… I couldn’t handle it. I was sitting on the edge of the bathtub, crying my eyes out, the bandage in one hand and the cell phone in the other. I looked up at myself in the mirror. And then I looked towards the sink. Scissors. And a razor. I fingered the razor. I looked at my wrist. And then I snatched up the scissors, and started hacking my hair off. All of it. It’s about five inches shorter now. I look… a lot more like a boy than I ever have. And I’m not done. Tonight, I’m going to go get it cut off even more- I’m thinking fohawk- and sometime this week, I’m dying this shit bright red. And you know… I feel REALLY fuckin’ good about all of it.

I’m reconsidering my gender, the way I always do when Gavin sticks around for long periods of time and won’t go away. Am I /really/ bigender? Or am I an FTM? I don’t know. And I don’t know what to say anymore… so… yeah. I’ll post pictures when I get my hair cut tonight. And I’ll keep you guys posted on any more breakdowns. Meh.

Reblogged from my personal Tumblr.

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well, this is awkward.

It’s not TMI Tuesday, but I’m pretty much too much to handle all the time, so I’m gonna jump right into this anyways. It’s nothing super graphic, though, so, no worries. Hi, this is Gavin, and I’m here to tell you about what it’s like being bigendered, as far as sex goes. I can only do this from my point of view, and Seath can only do it from his, so I figured, ya know, I’d go first. Have fun learning too much about me.

“Is there anything that you really don’t like?”

Even in a state as Haley, I’m not a huge fan of penetration in any form. This is probably because penetration is so new to me, though I will say that, as a trans man, the idea of being fucked in any cavity is… horrifying. (And don’t deny the fact that I’m a trans guy, okay? Just because I don’t identify as Gavin every day of my life doesn’t make my feelings every bit as real as any other FTM’s.) As Haley, the IDEA of penetration is great, but the actual experience hasn’t been what I thought it would be. Of course, I know that it takes a while to get used to. And Seath is… well… let’s just say that Seath knows what he’s doing. And I have no worries or complaints. Kthxbi.

“Is there anything that you really do like?”

Haley is a big fan of four-play. She actually enjoys the… the process of getting ready more than she likes the act of getting off. Licking, sucking, biting. And dirty talk. She’s a huge fan of dirty talk. Course, she’ll probably get all embarrassed about this being here later, and wanna edit it out, but I’m a little more honest than she is. Ah, me. Well, four-play is nice and all, but it’s not the best part, in my opinion. I’m more of an aggressive, straight-for-the-balls type of guy. And I’m a top. So, you do the math.

“Does your attraction to Seath change based on your gender?”

In short? Yes. The attraction that I have for Seath as Haley is a more… internal thing. She listens to his words, and she reads his writing, and she watches him drive, and… there’s something about the way that she feels him that makes her want him. With me, I guess it’s just more animalistic. Fuck, maybe the secret here is that my Haley personality is more decent, and I’m just a horny bastard. But with Seath and I it’s… it’s more like two really ready, really horny, really dominant animals attacking one another until someone ends up on top. It’s all about primal urges and raw desire.

I hope that you learned something new today. Shoot me any other questions you got.